BlUeMiSt

"You’re looking into my heart…" as this part of the song was sang repeatedly, the lyrics begin to sink deeper and deeper into my heart. suddenly fear and unworthiness just grip my heart so tightly. Suddenly the realisation that Jesus is looking into my heart, a heart that is full far from His holiness, a heart that is proud, a heart that is quick to judge, a heart that is birth forth in iniquity becomes so real. It feels terrible. I cried out to Jesus not to look anymore cos the more He look, the more i feel ashamed.I wanted to run away. My heart cries out…Jesus, please stop looking.. I’m not worthy of You fixing Your Holiness on my unworthiness. My heart cried out..please Jesus, don’t do that. Suddenly i was reminded that the the ultimate revelation is that God is merciful, that Jesus is merciful. The revelation of His mercy and the realisation of the condition of my heart grieved me so much that I wept and wept. For once after so long that i begin to wept so audibly with a loud voice of grief. Many a time when we saw something unsightly, we just turn our eyes away and not wanting to take another look. But over here, Jesus the Holiest of all is looking at the ultimate fallen heart of man, a heart that is dirtied by sin. Because Jesus love me. He love that heart and wanted to heal it. He love it so much that He gave His blood to clean up the mess. Suddenly i begin to understand how Peter might possibly felt at the moment when Jesus looked at Him at the instant He denied Him for the third time. I begin to realise the true meaning behind worship… His mercy towards a undeserving me.. His everlasting grace. I love Jesus…

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